Progress
Would you call it progress if a cannibal used a knife and a fork? Sure, any compromise in behavior is definitely progress.
I have made a lot of progress over the past month. I know what I want and am working on my "game plan". It is a game, is one of many things I have discovered. We are all just players in the big game of life and the out come is mostly in our hands. Outside influences can only effect you if you allow them, but there are things out of our control also. I have learned also that the past is called the past for a reason, it is already behind you and regardless if it just happened yesterday, it is still in the past and cannot be changed.
I had court on the child neglect and possession charges yesterday and was offered PTI; pretrial intervention. Upon completion, it will be as if I never was arrested. The DUI and leaving the scene of the accident; times 2 hearing was last week and I have lots of fines to pay and have lost my license for 6 months. I can live with that. So, all that is in the past and I am looking forward to moving on in a positive direction.
I am still clean, no alcohol or green. Both have been offered and I had the strength to refuse. I can actually take a drug test; which is something I have not been able to say for years!
I start a new job doing office work at a RV dealership on Thursday. It is less than 10 minutes from my mother's home, so after the fines are paid and I am able to save towards my getting my own place again I know it will be close to Momma and the area I grew up in.
I am still on the Prozac, but may be ready to wean off of it soon. I will decide later.
Thank you again for all your prayers, I feel them constantly and really appreciate them.
Peace, Love and Happiness to you all.
I have made a lot of progress over the past month. I know what I want and am working on my "game plan". It is a game, is one of many things I have discovered. We are all just players in the big game of life and the out come is mostly in our hands. Outside influences can only effect you if you allow them, but there are things out of our control also. I have learned also that the past is called the past for a reason, it is already behind you and regardless if it just happened yesterday, it is still in the past and cannot be changed.
I had court on the child neglect and possession charges yesterday and was offered PTI; pretrial intervention. Upon completion, it will be as if I never was arrested. The DUI and leaving the scene of the accident; times 2 hearing was last week and I have lots of fines to pay and have lost my license for 6 months. I can live with that. So, all that is in the past and I am looking forward to moving on in a positive direction.
I am still clean, no alcohol or green. Both have been offered and I had the strength to refuse. I can actually take a drug test; which is something I have not been able to say for years!
I start a new job doing office work at a RV dealership on Thursday. It is less than 10 minutes from my mother's home, so after the fines are paid and I am able to save towards my getting my own place again I know it will be close to Momma and the area I grew up in.
I am still on the Prozac, but may be ready to wean off of it soon. I will decide later.
Thank you again for all your prayers, I feel them constantly and really appreciate them.
Peace, Love and Happiness to you all.
posted by lifemundane at 6:25 AM
3 Comments:
Wow. What can I say, except to keep on doing whatever you're doing. I know it must be a real bitch to abstain. Still, I know that you can do it. Keep your chin up and keep doing whatever you can to stay clean. I'm rooting for you@
Meri - it is great that you are keeping with it and starting over. You and Nate deserve a happy life.
Meri - you and Nate deserve a happy life - and you are well on your way. You are right about the past - don't let it define you.
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